The Reluctant Dragon

Well, I’m in my third week of school now, and the whole transitioning process seems to have gone quite splendidly. I’m back in an environment where I’ll be constantly challenged and encouraged to use my brain, (or rather what still remains of it). And it seems that although my schedule has become more condensed these past few weeks, I have still been able to see or communicate with long-time friends. Despite all of these lovely revelations however, I can’t help thinking of the direction that I am currently pursuing. As I grow older and older, it would seem only natural to reassess and analyze the career I want to pursue (neurosurgery). And I believe that I would be would be totally fine with all that thinking… if I was a robot who ran on batteries and oil.

When I look at my life and see some of the mistakes and confusion surrounding it, I realize that the human heart has so much to do with what has occurred. More importantly however, it’s the human heart that’s given me all those extravagant, unexpected moments of life as well. So there in lies the question: Do you follow your heart? Do you neglect a design you’ve pursued the majority of your life? Do you listen to your change of heart, even though you’d have no idea where to head next?

There’s a saying that goes, “there’s nothing new under the sun”; and truly there isn’t. So I know there’s no real reason to pull a Freakazoid and start fighting crime with very little of my insanity intact. I realize that as the nucleus of who I am grows and embraces various individuals around me, the argument between my heart and mind will continue to develop as well. And this dragon is ok with that… for now… I guess.