I [didn't] get down with them other kids
Probably cause i talk too white, and i got a dad who's there
Momma couldn't take it; sold the place and got us outta there
Guest room: now the 6 of us splitting one with a restroom
Now I'm going to this school called Rockridge
School of the neighborhood we're trying to buy a house in
There's not a lot of black kids
So i stick out like a sore thumb with some bad acne
But really, what i wanna know is why i never fit in right
Like a fat dude, getting on a packed flight
Even when I make friends in the hallways
I'm wishin' i was someone else always
But i'm happy that that s**t happened to me
Cause it taught me most important is to do "me"
Cause everbody hate you till they love you
Facebook n***s [the] same [people] that will shove you
.................
Labels want me to hurry and cash my check in
But i keep my s**t free till the last possible second
Cause God knows that I don't need the money
You get your clothes free when you're rich. Ain't it funny?
But this limelight burn[s] like a m** f***
I wanna call my dad crying but i hangup
Cause i don't want him to worry; he's got his own s**t
So i send him a check and tell him to hold it
If anything happens [I] want you to know this
I always took the time to smell the roses
And wherever I am, I am doing fine
I'm here for a "good", not a "long" time
Labels want me to hurry and cash my check in
But i keep my s**t free till the last possible second
Cause God knows that I don't need the money
You get your clothes free when you're rich. Ain't it funny?
But this limelight burn[s] like a m** f***
I wanna call my dad crying but i hangup
Cause i don't want him to worry; he's got his own s**t
So i send him a check and tell him to hold it
If anything happens [I] want you to know this
I always took the time to smell the roses
And wherever I am, I am doing fine
I'm here for a "good", not a "long" time
I like that.
ReplyDeleteIn a weird way I kind of identify. I was the weird theater girl with my christian friends, the weird christian girl with my theater friends...and I didn't like myself for a long time. Obviously didn't have the same experience as you, but I never felt like I belonged anywhere and it was hard. Now I understand myself and how God created me much better and I think...it's easier to be happy when I appreciate not fitting in.
Exactly. I don't think the experience is limited to just race. And most importantly, you are right about those moments giving us definition and identity. They inspire us and remind us of that One person who told us how beautiful, talented, and unique we were before everyone even had a clue. Even before we ourselves noticed or came into existence.
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